I need you to throw anything you have at me--prayers, good thoughts, jingles, spare coins, whatever.
It's an unholy time of the morning and I am up because my blistering shoulders told me to get up and rub the lotion into the skin (I really did NOT want the hose again). Once the lotion soaked in, though, my mind couldn't turn back off.
This publishing thing has me all sorts of conflicted, y'all. Reviewing the facts (or lack of facts) I have on my prospective publisher, I should continue on my merry little way. But here I am, pausing. It makes no sense.
A friend of a friend told me that if my goal was getting my book out there no matter what, even at the cost of my own legitimacy, to go ahead.
At the cost of my legitimacy?
My work--my status as a writer--could be construed as unworthy should I chose Publisher B over Publisher A? Or, in another example, self-publishing vs. traditional publishing? I presented this idea to my husband, who assured me that reasoning was flawed. "If you're on the worst baseball team in the division, that makes you less of a baseball player?" Some would say yes, but I understood what he was trying to get through my skull.
I get it. I wouldn't have asked this friend of a friend to drop some knowledge (or, at the very least, scathing opinion) on me unless I didn't really want to hear it. And I'm trying to be open to what is coming back to me--good and bad. The problem with this particular company is that it sounds so promising, but it is so new that that's all there is right now--promises. I'd sincerely hope that people would caution me about what I'm considering. I'd likely do the same in their shoes.
The answer to all of this seems so clear sometimes, and, at others, I can appreciate the views on the other side. Frustrating. Where is my Magic 8-Ball when I need it?
I'm obviously still weighing the plusses and minuses of this particular company and publishing traditionally at all, and I'm still on the fence. That being said, I'm supposed to talk with their contract guy later today to explain their process. I'll update when I know more, if I even know how to decipher any of the legal mumbo-jumbo into words any of us can wrap our brains around. In the meantime, I'd reallyreallyreally appreciate it if you could think of me and help me to receive clear direction as to whether I should proceed or not.
Thanks. You're a peach, I don't care what the others say about you.